I annoy myself

Author: dkpark
January 28, 2009

For the longest time I have wanted a new cell phone.  By longest time I mean 8-10 months - so that is a pretty long time.  Of course during these tough economic times (we are trying to downsize our living conditions for goodness’ sake) - well it’s just not the time to want “stuff”.

But

I

cannot

shake

the

want.

I have tried and tried.  I have meditated.  I have prayed.  I have been angry.  I have been sad.  I have avoided all cell phone commercials during the holiday season and even now I close my eyes and put my fingers in my ears when a cell phone commercial comes on tv.  I have not read about cell phones.  I have not looked up cell phones on Consumer Reports to compare models and data plans.  I have done everything I can think of to accept that I cannot have what I want.

And

yet

the want

lingers

not unlike the darkside of the force.  Is this how Anakin felt!? (well not about a cell phone because he had a really cool lightsaber and what do you need a cell phone for when you are surrounded by droids and you have a really cool lightsaber.  His issue was with attachments and such to people - and maybe droids but mostly people)

Wow - totally wandered off course there

Anyhoo

I annoy myself and my wonderful husband with all this incessant want of cell phoney gadgets. Will the new cell phone make my life somehow better?  It might be more entertaining.

So,

How do I get over the want of stuff?

( We won’t even go into the fact that both of our careers/jobs depend on people’s wants.  We are not talking about them - we are talking about me)

5 Responses to “I annoy myself”

  1. dustbunny Says:

    I have no advice. We are bombarded in our society by the idea that instant gratificaton is what we NEED to be happy, satisfied, whole. I think you are doing what you need, to get around and through this. Prayer, meditation, and time should help, I think. *smiling* I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers K.

    {hugs}- Gina (db)

  2. bagpuss1 Says:

    Have you thought about buying a re-furbed cell phone? Mine only cost $28, a new one was $250.

  3. greeneyes67 Says:

    I don’t want much of anything at the moment. I think it’s because I have given up pretty much everything I had. Living with the barest of essentials has really put it into perspective for me. I don’t have much that is mine anymore. And I really seem to like it. Less responsibility for me. It is a real freedom.

    My cell phone died a month ago. I have not paid the insurance to get a new one and I really haven’t missed it much at all. But I’m not working so I have no need.

    Hope your week is fabulous :)

  4. gillardia Says:

    I WANT all the time….. all kinds of things… it drives me insane. My wants aren’t material though… they have to do with being with people are having certain relationships, etc. It’s hard to ignore those wants. I have no advice on how to get over it. If you figure it out, please let me in on it….

    Gill

  5. fijufic Says:

    Save your spare pocket change and buy it if that will make you happy. It may take awhile but in the process cellphone technology will improve as you save up…

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